This morning a very keen reality hit my soul during my quiet time; the tears flow freely. It is with no small regret that I am realizing how blithely I sin–just “little sins”, you know, nothing “big”. Like impatience or evil-surmising. Stuff maybe no one really sees–heart sins, hidden sins.
How little I see my Jesus, and how my sin hurts Him. Yes, He is God and the Savior. Yes, He is merciful, and died to redeem us. Yes, He is willing to forgive. But it costs Him. Not only on Calvary, but now! It costs Him NOW for me to sin. It hurts Him. I see him again, gripping His chest, His heart, Head bowed, tears streaming, as He is again betrayed by one who has, Peter-like, pledged undying allegiance.
After all He has done to “keep me from falling” (Jude 24), for me to choose to sin (for this is what sin is, a choice) is nothing less than ugly, heinous selfishness. I have to see it for what it is. How could I, could we, casually continue to hurt someone we love? LOVE!!!???
Could I, could you, casually slap a loved one in the face and walk away uncaring? This is what sin is. My sin. It’s me. Yes, it’s you too, but I see ME.
Jesus said, “If you love Me, keep My commandments.” John 14:15 This morning, I am praying for that love. I am praying for that new heart. “A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh. And I will put My Spirit within you, and cause you to walk in My statutes, and ye shall keep My judgments, and do them.” Ez 36:26,27. Join me?